>Today is the first day of winter, traditionally a time of death. Not death in the sense of an end for all eternity, but the death of the old, making way for the birth of the new. Look at nature- the leaves have faded their crimson and gold, fallen to preserve the life of the tree, only to be born again in spring. So it is with us- we experience little deaths and changes throughout our lives only to make way for the new experiences and opportunities that await us.

I’ve had a busy season of change these past few months. My relationship with Sam changed, my long term “boyfriend” is now (finally!) my husband. I have gotten my kitten (and apologies to all the dog people out there, but nothing is quite as satisfying as a wee feline beasty to keep your lap warm while you type out your musings), and it’s a nice change to have something living to keep you company during the lonely daytime hours. I have left my job, for many reasons, not the least of which are new scheduling procedures that would render me as an “on call” therapist and therefore not really a master of my own schedule. My body is rejoicing, as it was hard work, but part of my soul will miss doing massage on a regular basis. Still, I know that this was the right decision. We are moving soon, and while it is a relief to think about it, it’s always stressful to move anywhere, even if it means Sam and I will officially have a home together again. And finally, the biggest change of all, is really yet to come, when we have our baby in June. I’m content to focus on growing a good one, and I can’t wait to meet him or her!!

It’s a lot to process! I think we’re doing admirably well, even if we are kind of stressed out at times.

I for one am happy with what’s happeneing. I know in my heart that this is all right- I feel it. I’m excited. I’m ready to face my new challanges.